I’ve got serious issues. Okay, maybe they’re not that serious, but how it changes my mood is what makes it more serious than it should be. The problem is that I recognize these issues, but can’t stop myself from feeling a certain way about them. And it’s not like me to ever speak up about them because it’s my problem to deal with. Would vocalizing these issues as they happen actually help the situation? Or would I just be seen as some sort of princess/crazy bitch with high demands and expectations? In all fairness, I do think that some of my peeves are very well justified.
So, as if I’m not crazy enough at home with my germaphobic mentality and cleanliness… when on vacation, you can multiply these quirks by 100. 1) Nothing ever touches the hotel floor. 2) I must wear slippers. And if we share a bed and you don’t wear slippers, them feet better not touch me. 3) The bed is pretty much always going to feel dirty to me. 4) Don’t even get me started on the towels. Despite doing everything in my power to feel clean on vacation, I rarely do. And when I don’t feel clean, I don’t like it when people touch me. Not only that, but if I’m feeling dirty, you can’t begin to understand how I would feel about others.
Yeah, I know. I’m crazy.
All problems aside, the trip was good. I learned shit about myself and my relationship that obviously needs work. There was not enough down time as I had hoped for, but whatever. Whenever the second time around is, I can definitely say that it won’t be so touristy. It’ll be a long while before I come back to Hawaii though. Next up, Asia?! /vacation