It’s a strange feeling.
I’m not exactly sure how to explain it. I guess it sort of feels like a relationship. The beginning is always exciting and once you’ve made that decision to commit, you want to do everything you can to ensure it succeeds. Yes, there are obstacles and there will be problems, but when you’ve established that bond, it’s not easy to just pack up and leave. Abort ship. You do what you can to make it work. And, if in the end it isn’t enough, well… you have to move on.
I’m sad and I’m excited. Perhaps more sad than excited at the moment, but like the end of all relationships… this is a normal feeling. Things will look up and I’ll be excited again. ok bye.